For all the obvious reasons, I need to quit smoking. Health problems, social stigma, clothes smelling, etc. But, for me, I have always told myself I would quit smoking before I got married. Or before I turned 30. I don't know, it varied. Now it looks like one of those two things may happen in the next two years!!!
Haha, I'm not getting married, just older.
But Boyfriend and I have talked about children - kind of in the "one day" frame of mind that every couple in love must do I imagine and it has been kind of a kick in the pants to quit smoking within a few years of deciding to start a family.
So, here I am, starting. I haven't had a cigarette since Saturday around 11 p.m.
Sunday was pretty easy. I slept late and when I woke up and saw that my last pack was empty, decided that now was a good a time as ever to quit. Stayed busy with Boyfriend all day and hardly had any cravings - Boyfriend was very encouraging. The worst part was after a nice big meal Sunday night I REALLY wanted to smoke but I didn't have any and was already proud of my progress.
Monday was hard. I had really vivid dreams and was very high strung at work. I also got bored REALLY easily as there was nothing to break up the day for me. Smoking was always the way I rewarded myself after accomplishing a project and without it, the day seemed really long. Physical cravings were bad on Monday and I snacked A LOT.
Today, Tuesday, has been the worst so far. Physical cravings aren't as bad but mental cravings are undeniable. I am in mourning for cigarettes if you can believe that. I've played a reel in my head of all the wonderful times I've had smoking and started picturing myself ostracized from friends that smoked, etc. I see myself sitting on a park bench somewhere looking out of place without a cigarette. I noticed people hundreds of yards away smoking today and envied them. I am so unbelievably anxious and bored without smoking but nothing can hold my attention for more than 10 minutes at a time.
Money is a big factor in why I am quitting smoking. Not just the $6.90 a pack of smokes costs in New York these days but the fact that I usually pay for them with cash and therefore have an extra three bucks just sitting in my pocket that easily gets spent as well. In my earlier days I've been known to spend money I did not have just for a pack of cigarettes. That is all, hopefully, going to change.
I just need to get through another couple of days before I can officially announce that I have quit. Wish me luck!