So I'm pretty proud of myself and annoyed at the same time.
First, I gathered the courage to ask my boss if I could attend a conference that's technically related to my employment but in reality would provide me with professional opportunities outside of my 9-5 work (and he understood that as well). I also asked if, um, they'd pay for it. Not only did he say YES he said they would also pay for my transportation!
"Sweet," I thought and happily filled out the travel request form, adding the conference fee to the fee for taking the train to the conference. Only after it had been filled out and sent in did I realize I actually had to pay for the costs upfront and wait to be reimbursed. "Use a credit card," they said, "it will be paid off before you even get the bill." Haha. Not happening.
I was happy to get the day off to attend and even happier that they will eventually pick up the check but I hadn't really worked the numbers before asking. I CAN pay for this but it's going to put a real damper on Boyfriend's Birthday Weekend plan. I value my career over my relationship (is that bad?) so I know when something has to come first, it's me, but I feel extremely bad that I told Boyfriend I would pay for a hotel that he booked when it looks like I really won't be able to now.